Day Dream

I told my friends and family that I just quit smoking
Oh, honey bunny, don’t you know I’m just joking
Fatten my liver and black out my lungs
That night I told you I was out and about
And promised you I was done fucking around
But all these pretty birdies kept flying around

I said, “Oh, God”
I got this feeling
I can’t deal with
Who I am
I change my mind
When I can’t breathe
Inside a daydream
I guess I’m sick
And that’s just what it is

Can I fill my soul up with bed sheets and strangers
And siphon the feeling of feeling creative
From what I've done wrong
So there's something to write?
I think I was built from the leftover pieces
Ones that short-circuit as soon as you need them
I'm losing my language, but keep writing speeches

I said, “Oh, God”
I got this feeling
I can’t deal with
Who I am
I change my mind
When I can’t breathe
Inside a daydream
I guess I’m sick
And that’s just what it is

OK, so, whatcha wanna do though?
You don't love the man who's standing in the room
Or do love how everything I do now
Keeps me walking backward or crawling back to you?
I'm afraid I won't change

I said, “Oh, God”
I got this feeling
I can’t deal with
Who I am
I change my mind
When I can’t breathe
Inside a daydream
I guess I’m sick
And that’s just what it is